I’m trying to bridge the gap between my inner gardens, oceans, skies and outer shell,
To step out of it
And only then…
There will be no secrets to hide
No confidences to tell
Nor reservations
I will not be scared
And every person will be a close friend…
I like to drive in a highway at night.. Listening to songs I used to listen too in past times…
It feels a sweet kind of sadness
That keeps me going
I daydream of myself as a choreographer of a dance.
I saw a couple of souls twirling; ascending or descending depending on their journey…
Attracting one another, exactly whom they need to deepen their existence and emerge into higher levels of growth and understanding.. As they twirl, I watch their faces as their emotions unfold.. Promises, laughter, lust, joy, sadness.. Broken promises, anger, jealousy, shame.. I see an infinite expression of emotions..
And still they twirl perfectly
Genuinely and gracefully…
Alone in their togetherness
No mistakes
No one harming the other
No victims, nor are there villains…
Nothing to forgive, nothing to apologize for.
When I feel sad, I don’t suppress it, on the contrary I embrace it, I cry, my heart ache, I set alone, write some shit, listen to sad songs, I completely immerse myself into it for few days.
Then that’s it! I move on, I laugh, dance and enjoy my day… life is too fucking short to let sadness get into my soul…
I’m scared and sad as shit but Ali I must keep on going…
I must not let sadness take me down.. I will keep myself intact… Life is tough… Being sad and depressed will only make it tougher.. I can’t do tougher…
Between making the cappuccinos and the lattes on a rainy day a childhood friend enters the café.. Whom I haven’t seen in ages, I immediately noticed how his aura was glowing with peace! …
..
So during a prayer break I went and sat next to him… It felt so strange because we were talking like we met yesterday… ..
He looked at me immediately and
said I left Jeddah for 7 years.. Why?
Running away.. From family and searching for myself
I looked into his deep wise eyes and asked, did you find it?
He smiled.. Yes I did, and then I found God
Why this appetite to shout?
Why this anger and disrespect …
..
There was love my dear
There was a laugh.. A tease and plenty of hugs… Confessions and wishes under a full moon and a deep sea
…
Let’s remind ourselves that we are only visiting for a short period.. No need to shout..
Set alone
Stare at the moon
Stare long enough until you love yourself
And when you do.. You will notice how much the moon loves you..
And how much the stars love you
And the whole universe love you
Happy valentine day
